spillin'

im gonna say some stuff that is pretty stupid, but hey, im a teenager.
live, with it ;)

so i think my PMs on msn have been a little weird these days,i have to admit.
well thats because i recently discovered i made a REALLY HUGE mistake and i regret.
very much.
and hahaha it involves a certain someone.
yeah......
silly me made this disgusting decision based on my very distorted perception of perfection.
and for that, i hate myself.
i have no idea how else to put it, really.
im not blaming anyone. i know i myself caused this whole shitty situation.

"cause i'm broken."

lol fyi, im not emo.
im just clearing it up to myself, dont wanna remain in denial.

"cause its not too late, its never too late."

are you sure bout that?

and fyi, this is not about the one THIS YEAR :P
that dude was merely an infatuation, really.

i feel better now.
at least im not lying to myself anymore.
:D

a lil update!

so its pretty obvious i did something to my blog.
yeah i removed the links, cause i realized there're too many outdated links as well as the ones i dont read or are dead.
so i'm only linking the blogs i read, with pictures :)
yeah my blogs pretty blank, especially with the whiteness and all.
so, yeah.
its 3.11am(whts wrong with me man ==).

k. bye :D
nite!

quiz quiz quiz! :D

Did this personality quiz thingggg. Cant be too sure its allllll right, but most of it is, sooo, try it!
:D

Dont cheat ahhh! xD

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

What do you think? :O

i was wrong

to let him go.

my very productive day.

Yah today, was wonderful.
All i did was go online, read and mapled when the server came on.
Soooo PRODUCTIVE.

So yeah. Finished reading, got bored, made that.
Its stupid, yeah.
Dont blame the bored person! :P

*gets abducted by aliens and disappears*
*pzziao laser sound*
xD

edit.
forgot to show this :P



NO I DIDNT SIT ON IT.
was lying on my bed, playing my guitar.
(yeah i play my guitar lying down LOL)
then i wanted to read i think, or smth, so i put the guitar on the bed and *duk* it hit my glasses.
and it died.
awwwws.

kbai :D

its 3.45 and its CHRISTMAS TALK! :D

And im up at this super unearthly hour.

Blogging.
Being lifeless.
Sokay its fun and during the holidays so its not so bad :P

As you can see i was super pissed off in the previous post.
My nephew just told me k800i's camera sucks LOL.
And he just said "i cant wait for spm to be over la, after spm i laugh at you *fake laugh*"
LOL yeah he can get kinda funny for a smoker.

Anyway lets blog about something that'll make me happy :D

C H R I S T M A S !

Yeah even though my family's not Christian we celebrate it.
Jia wei questioned. ==
Lets seeeee, what i loves bout Christmas.

1. Its pretty.
2. It puts me in the festive mood.
3. Festive mood means good mood ;P
4. Good mood means more spending~
5. Spending on presents for people i so love ♥
6. Family time!
7. This year my mom&i are the organizers so there'll be tortu--i mean games (A)
8. Every corner you turn will be decorated with some christmasy stuff
9. How people mispell christmas :P
10. PRESENTS!!!
11. (fake)SANTA!!!
12. SPRAY CANS!!
13. CANDY CANES!!!
14. MORE PRESENTS!!!
15. My 2 favourite clashing colours, red and green!
16. Walking around in shopping malls and going to the roadshows with all the awesomez stuffs
17. NEW STUFF!!
18. have i mentioned how my disgustingly awesome my family members are? sometimes..
19. opening a present and going shit i dont even need this.
20. opening a present and going shit i ALREADY have this.
21. fretting over what to buy
    
22. just talking about it
23. milk and cookies!!!
24. asking other people and hearing them say "family reunion" (doesnt it make you feel so warm :P)
25. for the Christians they go to church and watch plays and stuff
26. preparing the food!!
27. pre-party preps!!
28. pre-party deco!!! :D
29. games! oh i already said that. games!!!
30. talking to cousins although you hate them then finding out you dont rly hate them.
31. christmas tree!
32. hanging stuff on the tree!
33. something to do with the tree!!
34. suddenly remember you dont know wheres the tree and panic
35. then you remember its sitting outside on yr balcony
36. suddenly remembering you have this super pretty christmas light thing in yr house
37. i just love the damn tree okay.
38. FAKE SNOW!!!
39. which also means spray cans.
    
40. erm, turkey? :P

out of these 40 things, i think 39 of them are crap/repeated :P
maybe you could list out your own things you like bout christmas and contribute some ideas to this stunted brain.
its 4.01am.
explains why im so brain-dead right now.

oh remember i mentioned something bout red and green being my fav clashing colours?
i remember i dressed my maple character like that once :P
wait lemme find it...

see! so clashy :P
but i liked it, in a weird way LOL.
yeah i was a GM *lansi face*

okay im gonna go sleepz!
gnite! :D

f-r-i-e-n-d-s.

This is why i never wanna confide in people.

Daniel : whats wrong with you lah.

That. Is why.

It started out with Stephanie. She told me she was afraid to approach me ever since the party cause what happened was she promised to come, in the end she didnt. Yeah at that moment i was pretty pissed, but after that you think i gave two hoots? Its not like she tried to sabotage my party or anything. She just couldnt make it, so okay lah. I didnt make it a compulsary event also? She told me in msn what, so i answered "then dont la."(as in, she said she's afraid to approach me so i told her dont lo.) She probably assumed i was serious and what shit so okay. whatevs.

Then i told daniel about it. then he said "sometimes you hv to look pass this kinda stuff. in the end its whether you wanna be mad or happy" or something like that la. cant remember. then i told him that sentence doesnt make sense. he didnt ask for an explanation and then he said something. cant remember what again.

Yes i am that pissed off.

ok i cant remember what he said after that, just that i said *shoots comment that destroys friendship* daniel if you want to know what that comment is, its "maybe you should stop thinking of all that emotional crap you always think about and rethink that happy/sad sentence you just told me."

yeah whatever. i was gonna type something but i got this angry rush of blood to my head and i forgot what i was gonna type.

since im ranting i might as well continue.

dyou know the feeling of like, when your best friend gets into a relationship, and at first youre so happy for him and all but after awhile nothing you see is worth being happy for. yeah im going through that also. its like, here you are being so excited, wanting to share something with him, so you tell him about it, and all you get is this shitty response like,
oh.
no
okay.
yeah.
sure.
yeah feckyou bestfriend.


i just noticed all the people who are in a relationship have problems =.=
really. look at jesslyn. she also another one. chris isnt as bad as her lah i think. yeah he's the person im talking bout above.
oh jesslyn?
i ranted bout her long time ago.
there isnt much to talk bout anymore since we all know her so well.
im sick of ranting.

more like, im sick of friends who have emotional problems/in relationship. they just simpy dont have the time for you. one day im gonna build an army of robots and theyre gonna be the awesomest people(irony) alive with an emotional range of a teaspoon.

now i know why my mom ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS told me getting into a relationship in highschool isnt fun cause then, youd be missing out on the time spent with your friends and once you pass high school, youre NEVER gonna get it back. have fun wasting time with THEM, my "friends". when highschools over, all you'll see in your diary is the name of this person that dumped you/you dumped for another person while others like us non-taken people will lookback and see our outings and all the crazy crap we did.

have fun.